this photo was taken just the day before the adenoidectomy GA procedure in 2024.

one or two days after his discharge from the hospital, Jean and I screamed at him and cast him out of the bedroom into the darkness at night, when he woke up and cried due to the pain in his neck. It was all natural, and he had every right to do so.

The same adenoidectomy was done for his older sister afterwards, following him. We served her like… the normal parents do to their elementary school kids after surgery.

I ponder what on earth has made him so strong. so distant from self-pity. so full of love. so full of mercy on me. so virtuous and noble. I cannot find the answer from my logic and knowledge.

This diary is about how Jiyong and I have mistreated him and ignored him when he really needed the most intensive psychological attention and warmth from mom and dad. and also, this diary is about how he, the holy son of God, has perilously and graciously fought the fight in his virtuous manner. what a boy..